Why can’t something workout for me for once? Why can’t I have the girl I want so bad, why can’t I find the ways to make her happier than anyone? I want so badly to know what she wants and what she truly feels for me. I just feel like I don’t know what to do, I wanna be with her. But does she want that? I have fought so hard, and stood my ground, but I don’t know she even wants me to be there. I don’t think anyone understands really, it’s even hard for me to describe it. I should have just cut to the chase and just asked her to be my gf, but I always just felt she would say no. Those times I came so close, I don’t think she even knows. I may never know what could have happened if I had just asked. I wish I could show her how much I love her and the battle I’ve been through. I just wish she could tell me what’s going on, what she wants and feels, tell me that there’s hope. I wish that she could take the fall into me and know that I’m right there with her every step of the way. I want her to be happy, and I don’t know if I make her that. I love her and she will never understand how much. I can’t stand thinking about not having her, I don’t want her to be anywhere but with me. I want her to be mine. Maybe it’s just that easy in my head but in real life I guess it’s not. What do I do

Well seems I didn’t hangout with you right when you wanted cause I had no idea what to do. And now you are making excuses to not hangout. Ok I understand